comparisons

I tried to tell a story today, of something meaningful in my past.

Of course the person I was telling found a way to be offended.

They thought I was somehow comparing my experience with theirs, and as I was about to expound on my lead in they got snippy and said,

"Well I'm not perfect like you are!"

I'm standing there agast, in a "what the hell was that?" state.

I just wanted to relate a story about my life that was in context of the conversation. I did not know their experience, I was already well aware that neither of us are perfect, but somehow....

Like I said before, no point in having conversation - not only for reasons before, but because everyone assumes that any story you tell is a "pissing contest" that they feel they have to try to 'win'.

I'm starting to understand and appreciate blogging, and the geeks that lock themselves in the house and only relate through a computer.

Except for Yahoo.

People have a extraordinary gift for finding ways to be offended on Yahoo. They apply their own emotions to your words and are able to twist even the most innocuous statement into a perceived "blatant attack" and turn into online monsters right before your eyes...

and its all your fault somehow.

being hearing impaired, I depended heavily on Yahoo to be able to stay in touch with people, since I can't use the phone.

But now I hardly dare say anything using it for fear of saying "good morning" and getting"

"WHAT THE HELL DOES THAT MEAN? HOW DARE YOU! " ect ect

which has actually happened btw.

on the one hand, I feel even more isolated from the world now. On the other....

who wants to be involved with a world like this?

Silence

I'm Tired.

I'm tired of living in the "Land of the Offended, and the Home of the Lawsuit." as it were.

The whole world has taken on a certain meaningless to it.

Everyone knows God, and they either love Him, or hate Him.

As for lesser things, there is nothing to talk about. Not that there is nothing worth saying, there is everything to be discovered, especially about ourselves....

But no one is listening.

Those that are hearing, are either assuming your lying, looking for some ammunition to hate on the world with, or, are looking to twist your words to serve the dark purpose of harming you, or harming themselves by finding a way to have what you say become an affront of some kind.

There's nothing pure anymore, there's nothing sacred, no one really wants to express, or feel the expressions of love. Not parents to children, not husband to wife, not neighbor to neighbor.

and still we talk, "gobble gobble gobble gobble". Why?

I don't know anymore. I don't even know why I try to reach out to people anymore.

There is no point in sharing ideas, everyone's is better than yours.
There is no point in exchanging philosophy, everyone knows more than you do.
There is no point in complimenting anyone, they assume your lying.
There's no point in telling anyone you love them, they don't believe you.
There is no point in mentoring anyone, no one is listening.

There is no point in conversing with anyone, they are ignoring you, only waiting for you to pause so they can start talking.

Maybe it's the Meniere's, maybe it's the drugs, in some ways I'm glad I'm going deaf....

But I really wish I was going mute.